And here we are. At the end of probably the strangest year in our lives. It definitely was for me. I thought I would post my favourite cake of this year which I made for a photoshoot in November.
And I also thought I would write something about my feelings. But first, a mention of the leveranciers (suppliers) involved in this amazing photoshoot: Organisatie: @yourbloomingbusiness
And then my thoughts...
First of all, I realised that Floury Hands to me is not just about making cakes and being busy with the business side of things, but it is also some sort of an emotional outlet for me. I always wanted to write a blog (well, more like a diary), and I’ve started one a few times in my life so far, but I never really stick to them. And now I have my own Facebook/Instagram page where I have followers who may (or may not?) be interested in me as the person behind these creations. So yes, from now on I will write more about me and my feelings and not just about the cakes I make. (Now is the time to speak up if this doesn’t appeal to you!) :)
So to share some of my recent feelings: I think I can confidently state that I am not alone in this... But I’ve had enough! Enough of this year, enough of the pandemic, enough of this insecurity! Enough of people practically spitting at each other because they think that whoever thinks differently or has a different view of something is crazy. Enough of not seeing my family and not getting to hug the people I care about! But when this will end is not up to me or you. We have to stay strong and keep going. You could say that we are lucky, because this is not a war, we don’t live in constant fear for our lives, but some people do live in fear, because either they are in a high risk category or their loved ones are. It is an extremely hard period in our lives, especially for those whose loved ones live across the border. But we must keep going and we must stay strong. I am not sure if it is the pandemic, or missing my family terribly, or just hormones, but I feel up and down all the time lately. It comes and goes. I feel I don’t have a purpose and I am not creative. The fact I now have my own studio, probably adds to these feelings, as I am a bit scared about this new chapter. Especially now that things are a bit much going back and forth between home and the studio many times a day and trying to juggle all the logistics now that the daycares are closed.
I know I am not alone. And I know others struggle too. But I have hope. I have hope that next year will be a better year. I have hope that in a few months we may be able to visit our families again. Here is to a better year, a better future, and I hope that if you’re feeling down, you will turn to your brother or sister, your friend, your neighbour or anyone! We can do this! But we can only do this together! Thank you for all your support, kind messages, and orders this year!!!! <3 Wishing you all a Happy New Year!